It's Okay?

Sometimes the worst thing one can say is "I'm okay", "It's alright" etc..
At normal times it's the best word to void people from worrying too much.
But at the same time it'll become a standard where people will know that it's okay to hurt you that much.


So much for silent night, screw you christmas.

Groups x Circles x Dreams.

Hmm, today wasn't that of a good day actually.

'cause i broke my ankle yesterday and had to stay home. so i really felt bored. !@#$

But then after. i actually read someone else's blog and also checked on my old school mates. I wonder how are they now. Haven't been seeing them for ages. That's so not right of me, HAHA xD

Well, but what really hit me was that i noticed that many of my old school mates are actually pursuing their dreams. And i was like, " wth? they are at the same age as me and they are like.. 1-2-100-- == like so many steps ahead of me!! " well obviously that didn't feel good. zzz

But just you guys wait, i'll catch up real soon! You'll guys will be looking at my back!

Tears.

Its already a year but i still missed him. I missed you, Bryan.

Limits.

Without any hints i know im at my limit. the den of tears shall be destroyed.

here we go again~

i really don't know what happened. i've been hugging my guitar alot lately. maybe becoz she's the only one i can hug.

i even go blank more often now. or stare at a spot and dunno what im looking at. what is wrong with me ah? when i read ppl's blog its like woah they are living a good life . (singing one republic's "Good Life" ) and i'll really smile, coz im really happy for them =)

but then . what about me.? whats my target? i dont remember. what's my purpose? i dont remember? from the look of it its like im suffering from amnesia. but i think my body knows it well.

somehow, the air is hard to breath.

Well, i guess i did learn something.

Holy snack! == wasted my whole holiday.
and now im writting my blog like there's no class tmr.

But something's different. At times like this i used to get really stressed out and get EMO. ==

but this time i felt calm instead. not frustrated, not unhappy, but calm.
i could smile and tell myself " ok, lets do it again until u get it right, again, and again. "

suppose this is the growth that was installed in me without myself noticing huh? haha

and now, bed time. Nite peeps.
Love the world. Love myself.

I've lost something important and i dont know what to do.