哭

心里又因故很难受的感觉。

要怎么让它散去，我不知道。

只是知道自己现在很想哭。

很痛快很痛快的大哭一场。

怎么办？

有自杀的念头时应该怎么办？ 谁来告诉我？

突然，觉得好想逃离这一切。

没有理由也没有目的。

不管怎么样都想逃得远远的， 越远越好。

就是想离开这一切。

除了头脑在想， 连身体也有同样的想法，正在不规律的颤抖。

拳头无法握紧，精神无法集中。

身体一直有种无力感。

我到底怎么了？

a post to myself. =3=

yang. time to wake up.

you gotta do this.

its now or never.

lets do it.

ready.

set.

go!!

nooooooo~~

bad feelings go away pls ~

go away pls ~

go away pls ~

go away pls ~

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a-haa.. ?

lol. today woke up real early. helped to prepare my sister's bento. and then it started raining.
something weird about it. is i start to feel sleepy when it started to rain..
so i went back to bed and sleep for 30 mins. and then when the rain stopped, i woke up. O_O???
and this continued for 2 to 3 times.. walao.. ^^v

there's quite alot that i want to write down. since it's been so long since i write.
but now im going to bed again. later only finish up this post.. a-haa..