exam coming.. @_@

well, in a few days time the UEC is coming.
omg, im starting to feel gan cheong about it but my body is still lazy to move. =_=
i actually did my studies. but i dont know if its enough to handle the exam.
and to be honest im thinking about things after the exam.

recently my thoughts have been weird.
一直胡思乱想..
要怎么办才好啊。。 haihz..

but no matter what it is, i wont back off this time.
(i guess. =P)
that's all for now. see what's there to write after the exam.

Peace People! =)









当我听到你的笑声，我所有的疲劳都不翼而飞了。

neck pain!! T_T

aih, today dunno wad was wrong, my neck hurts like hell.. cant twist or turn my neck.

so when i walk, 整个人好像 T 字形 酱...

even looked like a robot when im standing.. ==

but then studies went well today, i guess.

except for my neck that is.. >_<

today, felt kinda carefree. tried to see things differently, learned more about letting go..

so eventually felt more refreshed. haha. =)

but i also saw many things that happened to people around me. and i kept wondering what should i do? what can i do?

so i'll wish for people to be happy. =D

知道你笑了，我自己也跟着笑了。

呼~

累，　是唯一可以形容现在的我的一个字。

最近太多事情发生了，说真的有好多我都还不能接受。

遇到如此多的事情，还是必须要笑，所以我依然把笑容带在嘴边，可是我心里真的笑不出。

晓薇教我，这就是强颜欢笑。

我有一个学长，大我两岁，之前还在美国留学呢。他真的是超强的。

可是，两天前我被通知，“一豪不在了。”

我当时真的呆住了。

说不出半句话。

初中的时候，我便一直很仰慕他。

他为人好好，而且文武双全。

从打球认识后，我便对他有深刻的印象，就觉得他好亮眼，好想和他参在一起。

而他也没有排撤我耶，还会教我很多不同的东西，教我做人要有什么态度。。

让我真地把它当成哥哥一样。一位理想的哥哥。　

可是现在他不在了。

我本来还想说，能不能在园游会上看到他。

能不能一起去喝茶。

能不能。。　再一次和他打篮球。。

现在这一切都不能实现了。

我觉得好遗憾，我好久没和他对话了，而且再也没得和他对话了。。

在他的 facebook上看到他的照片时，看到一张有着他的招牌笑容。

点到这一页，　我的眼睛就不听话了。

为什么要让他就这样离开。。为什么。。

能把时间倒流吗？好想再一次看到他，然后一起做一些白痴行为. 这样的要求很过分吗？

一豪，安息吧。

Was it the right choice?

muahaha. trials are over and the UEC is what that's left.

honestly i don't dare to look at my results eh.. =_=

rest liao 2 days, i hope im feeling better liao.

but thought of many things recently..

hmm.. i wonder why between classmates people would rather only think for their own.

saying things that only you are happy about.

and go on a rampage when things are not your way.

how am i supposed to treat this kind of people?

i still think about being a friend, hoping that people will change for the better .

but i think that's juz a dream.

really i feel sad.

i can see how other classes are enjoying, sharing between their classmates.

they really act as a team.

but us, everyone has their own idea, everyone thinks for their own.

why cant we tolerate more among ourselves?

juz a small change from everyone and we too can have a really great time.

why hold a grudge?

its not like he/she killed someone you love?!

why must we keep remembering what damage people has caused to us and not what damage we have cause to others?

I really starting to regret, well juz by a little and i don't know if it'll grow..

is choosing to study form 6 a bad idea?

够了...

我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...我受够了...

我受够了...

*Pumped up, ready to berusaha*... * out of breathe* ... *tried to push on* .. * gave up*

... ok.. this post takes alot of courage to write. (of coz la, having trials still on the com.==)

recently, i don't know why. feel a little moody. although i know i shouldn't be coz exams are here.

i shouldn't give myself time to sulk. but i just can't. ><

keep having this feeling.
that i have so many things i would like to do.

but, can i really do that?

saw some people who became a celebrity by doing the things he / she loves, and enjoying it much.

do i also get the chance to enjoy doing the things i like?

it really seems so far.. *rolling on the floor crying. LOL*

feels like im out of battery.

becoz i cant find my charger! Grr..

see so many friends moving forward. while im still stuck here doing something.. err , "special" . ^^v

that really make me wanna scream out loud, but i couldn't. (coz i might get grounded for making too much noise)

even tried to change myself. but then when i do so things just do work out fine. @@

i kept thinking about what i might bcome in the future.

but there seems to be alot of cages and traps.

sometimes i really feel like complaining. ( ok, i know that i should'nt.. ><)

coz my parents keep restricting me from this and that and this and that and this.. ==

for example to not be able to have my driving license at this age.

ok. i know im only making a fuzz. but its just that there are things that can keep me motivated and things that pull me down.

and the ratio happens to 1:10 .. ==

i kept trying to make myself cheer up and recharge my heart battery, but got charger no plug.

the smile is always there on my face, but i dunno if its real. sigh.

ohh yea. now time to say the fun part. recently i've been practicing my japanese language skills with my sensei. wahaha. so much fun when we ALWAYS don't understand each other. LOL. XD

and then she told me that i was speaking in Osaka slang while she's speaking Tokyo slang. ^^v

This makes me wanna travel to Japan for once. TT

well.. trials are going to end by this saturday, yet so i'll have to be preparing for the real thing.

learnt that there are things to pick up and things to let go.

Lets see if i can do it right.

Peace people! =D

Desho??

ああ！watashi wa no baka desu!!

Kanashii... ==